Ah, it must be christmas, the Coca Cola ads have started.
Tis the season.
Yep.
The pantomime is sending me insane...work's pretty bad too. BADUM TSH.
>_< The bad jokes are catching. All I need now is a wig and a dress. O_o Perhaps.
Anyway, yeah. Merry whatsit and a happy new thingy and all that.
Where's me bacon?

I haven't blogged about anything worthwhile in a long time... and I'm not going to start now. Here's something I found on the shelf at work and took a picture of with my phone. mmmyep

You're Jack! "I am the Pumpkin King!" and
yes you are. Although you have the fame and
fortune, you are not happy. You go and try to
find yourself but in cost of Christmas. In the
end everything is peachy keen and we still love
you.


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Yep

Mr. Crummles: But there is tragedy in the family.
Nicholas Nickleby: The pony's family?
Mr. Crummles: Yes... the father drank. Ended up in the circus.
Isn't that always the way?

Smaaarties!! Look at the SIZE of the tube. It's very impressive.

Savannah.^_^ I want her.

ok, this afternoon I was eating coco pops while running a bath, as you do, when I decided I had to blow my nose. So, with a mouth full of cereal, I blew my nose, coughed, choked and, half an hour later, coco pops came down my nose.
That's been the highlight of my day so far.
Not sure whether I should have admitted to that, but, hey.
mmmyep

Zhang Ziyi!! ^_^

Ok, bored. Quiz time again;

"You must remember this, a kiss is still a
kiss". Your romance is Casablanca. A
classic story of love in trying times, chock
full of both cynicism and hope. You obviously
believe in true love, but you're also
constantly aware of practicality and societal
expectations. That's not always fun, but at
least it's realistic. Try not to let the Nazis
get you down too much.


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Your Lightsaber is Blue

Blue is often associated with depth and stability.
It symbolizes trust, loyalty, wisdom,
confidence, and truth.


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40's to 60's Oh my god you are super mature... you
look at things just like they are, it's good
that you live in the real world, but dreaming
doesn't kill you, you know. Well anyways :D
mature person you are...


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You're like a fairy. Fairies were the little pixies
that usually lived in the forest with wings
like butterflies and perfect little faces.
they had brown or blonde hair and pale skin
with freckles. They were entergetic, joyful,
playful, very smart, and peaceful. Fairies are
deffinately the most famous of all fantasy
creatures. (If you cannot see the picture, go
to my userpage and look near the bottom. There
should be the picture and description for all
the results)


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pirates of the caribbean


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Bored, bored, bored.
Spider-man camera. ^_^
ok, it was a pink heart falling down my screen this time. Then a pink heart and a green smiley face. I really didn't imagine it. :|

My mum stood at the bottom of my bed this morning just staring at me. I slowly woke and and looked over to her, wondering what the heck she was doing. When I looked up she just said, "£180 pounds! Your phone bill is £180 pounds." She then went on to detail how she couldn't pay that and it was ridiculous etc. etc. I just said, "As long as I pay it what do you care?" She walked off mumbling something about being glad I could waste that much on phones and then I went back to sleep.
I also took my forms into work so I'll actually get paid, but then most of that money will go on my phone bill anyway.
Meh, roll on pantomime.

My sister has a chip in the bone in the corner of her eye where I hit her with a hair thing ages ago.
There you go, I've damaged my sister for life.
Go me.

My leg, not quite as impressive when you can't see the swelling, but there it is.

I hit my leg on a trolley when I was shopping and broke my leg! Well, no, but it's swollen and bleeding and icky.
My mum just told me some very disturbing information...
The other day my cousin Matthew had to go to the shop to get some hairspray because he'd run out. Ok, that's pretty bad already, but it gets worse; he then came out of his car with his new men's hair straighteners!
They then had to go to the pub for my grandfather's birthday without him because he had to straighten his hair!!
Really, people.

I missed the fireworks so they saved me some. Aw.
^_^

I was randomly looking through crap this morning and downloaded the new Star Wars trailer. It looks...like a Star Wars film. I'll leave it to you to decide whether that's good or bad. Also watched the trailer for Lemony Snickets, it looks pretty amazing. ^_^
My mum bought me a gingerbread thing home this morning which was nice.
Someone called me earlier and I missed it. I think it was someone from work asking me to do a job. They didn't call back and the number was withheld. Crap.
Should be going to the job centre soon and then into town to pre-order Harry Potter I think.
Yep...that's about it.
Still slightly disturbed by Incubus after reading my blog again. O_o
Mr T...scary.

"My name is Mr T. I'll rip your dick off with my ass."
O_o

My knee randomly started hurting about half an hour ago.
That's as deep and meaningful as I'm going to get right now.
mmmyep.

I got attacked with make-up! :|

MUM: I can't turn up to a posh hotel smelling of bacon.
ME: Yep, you smell.
MUM: At least I don't have a beard, Shane.
ME: I'd be very worried if you did. Anyway, it's part of my werewolf costume. Teen Wolf!! Grrr.
MUM: Yes, Shane. Very scary. O_o
mmmyep

My dad and sister just came home. My dad's covered in blood. As they got near home they found a teenager in the road caked in blood, with no teeth left at all and a swollen eye. He'd been kicked in the head until there was nothing left.
Apparently there was someone else kicked to shit outside a shop.
It's all alcohol. Any reason and that's it, you're fucked.
I want to tear the fucking world apart one beer drinking cunt at a time.
I want to do to them what they think they have the right to do to other people.
I want to kick their fucking teeth through the back of their fucking head.
They don't deserve to live. They're fucking animals. They should be put the fuck down.
Hmm, vitriol.

Everyone's gone out and left me. My mum's gone...somewhere and my dad and sister have gone...somewhere else. I don't care. I never listen to them. I'm just bitter because I have nothing to do.
Boredom. I'm sat here staring at the screen wondering if there's something better I could be doing with my time. Probably not.
I've eaten half a duck (which, surprisingly, was pretty damn good.) Now I'm quite full. Fatfatfat.
Randomly downloaded Alice in Wonderland last night and watched it this afternoon when I was confined to my room. It's not as bizarre as it seemed when I was little, but still, pretty weird. I really love the book though. Even though Lewis Carrol was a scary, scaryman.
It's been a pretty boring day in general really. I've not done anything but sit and read, and I was only doing that because I couldn't be bothered to watch movies anymore.
I haven't read for a long time actually. I need to start again.
GAH. Really. So, so, SO bored.

glo-stick fun. It's like Star Wars...or something. O_o

I got home and my dad was holding a box from Naomi which had been left outside the back door. Outside!! clever. Everything was ok though. It had pretty bows on top with black and orange ribbon and all the things were wrapped in pirate bags. ^_^
There was a Scare'dy Spider from Thorntons, (I've just looked at the back and realised the Thornton factory is just down the road from me. It's travelled quite a long way to end up five minutes away from where it came from!) four Halloween candles and a bear with a pumpkin.
Just went to Tesco to buy halloween supplies and I got three glo-sticks, one of which I accidentally set off. So now I'm sat here, in the dark, with a yellow glo-stick around my neck. Also bought a chocolate frog and got the card with Ron masturbating again!! What is with that boy?
SO many presents.

Gah, I had yet another dream about a rapper last night. O_o
Method Man.
Bad.

ok, so there was smoke coming out of the engine of my car. It doesn't mean there's anything wrong...does it? O_o
Went to see 5 children and It. If you like films with Eddie Izzard playing a sand fairy and delirously rambling about monkey wrenches, "or just a monkey with a wrench." Then it's the film for you. If not, then get off my blog you freak!
There we go.
Done.

I've had headache every day for about a month. I thought it was stress or something to do with how much I was sleeping but I've just realised it's probably the tablets. I've just been to the doctor and he's given me another month's worth and says I probably need another month after that. Meh.
Ugh. I need to move out. I need a job. I don't want to be here any more.
My sister bought me a lolly from the zoo shaped like a monkey and my mum's bought me a chocolate covered apple. Hooray for food on sticks.
Ok. This was a slightly random post. Never mind.
mmmyep.

I'm really fed up of people and their attitudes. Everyone gets upset and angry over the slightest of things. Even my mother's as touchy and immature as a teenager.
Maybe there's no such thing as 'maturity.' Or maybe everyone's just so wrapped up in their own world they don't care about anyone else's feelings.
Or maybe I care about everyone else's feelings too much.
Everyone's in a bad mood recently and it just makes my mood worse. I try and make everyone else feel better by doing and saying what they want just so it'll stop. It never does though. Something else just comes up instead. I don't want all this drama. People argue over the stupidest of things. It's not worth it, what's the point?
Meh.
Going to bed.

Download Moonlight sonata by Mozart.
Not much else to say. It's been a pretty uneventful week so far. The theatre's cool, although I hate having to finish and it's only gonna be a week this time. :-(
I need to start looking for a new job but I don't really want to yet. Meh, bills.
I'm having too many dreams about rappers recently. In the past week I've dreamt about 50 Cent, Snoop Dogg and Will Smith. It's disturbing me.
mmmyep
O_o

I just quit my job.
No money AT ALL.
Woo.
Meh.
Bed.

:: how jedi are you? ::

I don't have anything to blog really. Well, I probably do, but I can't really be bothered to think about it. So, instead, we have a random picture blog. This was taken at sunrise one morning this summer on my phone after I'd gotten stopped by the police for randomly wandering around at 5 in the morning. Hmm, yeah.

Meh.
Stuff.
I'm exhausted, but I can't sleep.
I can't breath properly. My chest's tightened up again and it hurts quite a bit.
Can't be bothered to blog more.
Bored.

murghmurghmurghmurgh
Another day.
My cousin asked me to go to the cinema. Then he cancelled.
I'm slightly glad.
I'm going to town tomorrow to buy trousers for my grandma's funeral...and just because I don't have any trousers.
murghmurhgmurgh
I feel crap all of a sudden.
I'm tired.
End

I finally passed my driving test on Wednesday. Only my fifth attempt. O_o Hmm.
I didn't tell anyone I was going for it because I didn't expect to pass again to be honest.
My grandma died yesterday afternoon. Which obviously wasn't a surprise. It didn't really affect me. It was for the best. *shrug* I dunno.
I can't really think of much else to say.

Ooo, my counter's working again. I'm on 149 now. I bet you're SO glad about that aren't you?
mmmyep.
I think something happened today, but I'm not sure what.
*Thinks*................ nope. I don't think it did.
I woke up feeling ok this morning but I've slowly gotten a headache again. Fun.
I watched Wicker Park. They changed the ending!! But I think it makes more sense than the original. Plus, Lisa doesn't get blown up.
I also watched Once upon a time in Mexico but got bored and just fast forwarded to the parts with Johnny Depp in.
Um, what else?
Mint or Parsley? I don't CARE.
Boring.
-_-

I don't have anything to blog. I'm just incredibly bored and I have nobody to talk to.
I didn't bother going to work today. Not going tomorrow either.
So what have I done all day? Well, had a headache. That's about it.
I don't have anything else to write but I'm immensly bored and restless and quite irritable so I'm just going to keep typing.
*MOODMOODMOOD*
Ugh, I don't want this food.
My headache wont go despite taking tablets.
Really, SO bored.
Forget it. I'm going out.
-_-

My post counter seems to be stuck on 140. Maybe that's all I've posted. I don't know.
Ok, Hero is the most beautiful film EVER. Go watch it now.
I don't care about all you film snobs who wont see action films or dumb, illiterate people who wont watch films with subtitles. None of it matters. Just watch it and be in awe.
"Oooh. Pretty pictures."
Yes.
My mouse isn't working right.
It's getting on my nerves.
Ok, done.
O_o

blogging, blogging, blogging.
My aunt called last night and asked me to go into town. (I think she wanted to get me out of the house.)
So she said she'd call me at 10.30 to make sure I was up.
This morning, 10.30, the phone rang.
ME (in bed): Why do these idiots keep ringing me!? I'm not answering. *turns over*
I then realised that I'd looked at my clock and it was 10.30. So I ran downstairs and picked up the phone just as she put it down. I called back and said, "Nooo. I was up." Lies.
So, went to town. Didn't really do much. Fell in love with Savannah. She's the cutest. ^_^
Picked up Shannon. Came home. Looked through DA. Naked French people. That's it.
mmmyep.
O_o

Ooo, aren't they pretty.
And the word for today is, "Fluoxetin"
Or Prozac to the rest of us.
http://www.mentalhealth.com/drug/p30-p05.html
It says it can cause weight loss and it impairs your driving reactions.
YAY.
-_-

I was sat next to my grandma's bed and she turned and looked at me and said my name.
I was almost happy for a second.
-_-

I just spent the last hour talking to every member of my family. That includes mother, sister, aunt and grandma.
I admitted some things to my mum which even scared me. I can't even remember what tehy were now but it made me realise I'm in a worse state than I even imagined.
My mum was saying she was scared for me. After hearing myself talk, I'm scared for me too.
I don't know what else to write. If I remember what I've been saying then I'll blog later. Otherwise I'll see what the doctor has to say tomorrow.
I'm gonna ring work now to tell them I'm not coming in anytime soon.
-_-

Hmmm. Jet just stole my cake and ate it.
Yeah, there was really some point in blogging THAT.
My appointment at the doctor's is for Monday morning.
Yay.
Meh.
-_-

"I have a feeling that you're riding for some kind of a terrible, terrible fall. But I don't honestly know what kind.... It may be the kind where, at the age of thirty, you sit in some bar hating everybody who comes in looking as if he might have played football in college. Then again, you may pick up just enough education to hate people who say, 'It's a secret between he and I.' Or you may end up in some business office, throwing paper clips at the nearest stenographer. I just don't know.
This fall I think you're riding for - it's a special kind of fall, a horrible kind. The man falling isn't permitted to feel or hear himself hit bottom. He just keeps falling and falling. The whole arrangement's designed for men who, at some time or other in their lives, were looking for something their own environment couldn't supply them with. Or they thought their own environment couldn't supply them with. So they gave up looking. They gave it up before they ever really even got started."
Mr Antolini.
The catcher in the rye.
-_-

Don't ever tell anybody anything. If you do, you start missing everybody.
-_-

My cousin came down to my grandma's last night because I'd come out of the house and left the keys on the outside of the front door. The first thing he said to me is that I get skinnier each time he sees me.
He took my sister and me home but drove all the way to town first to buy me food.
I ended up losing about £6 somewhere. I think I probably threw it in the bin outside the cinema by accident.
My mum's calling up the doctor to arrange for me to see someone. Someone to 'talk to.' I think we all know what that means. WOO, more medication. Fun.
-_-

Hm. So now I've seen what a deathbed looks like. It was the strangest situation I've ever been in. The way everyone looked. Their faces. I don't think I'll ever forget them. It reminded me of a war film. One of those scenes where it shows you all the soldiers waiting the night before a battle. Everyone was sat there just waiting for the inevitable to happen.
I really couldn't keep from crying. I had to leave the room twice.
I'm so drained right now. There's so much in my head.
I really want to leave. Just walk out the door and carry on until I end up somewhere different. I almost did twice tonight.
I can't really think of a way to end this post so I'll just fade out...
.....
....
...
..
.
-_-

I don't think I've ever blogged this much in one day.
My Grandma's had all her medication stopped. They're just waiting for her organs to fail. She wont last the night.
-_-

I just drank a full bottle of beer in one go. I don't like beer. Fun
O_o

Everytime I talk to my mum I seem to hear that my grandma has gotten worse. There's that much emotional stuff going on in my life at the moment I've kind of had an overload. I don't really feel anything about anything any more. Just a general huge depression. It makes me feel even worse about myself when I think that I can't be truly upset about it.
I've never really been upset by death though.
I just wish I had some emotion left that wasn't bad. I physically hurt all over. It's like a dull pain throughout my entire body.
Meh.
It's been this bad before. I just hope it's not prolonged. I'd rather not spend another New Year in the hospital.
O_o

My grandma's now so ill she can't eat. She was taken into hospital yesterday for tests. None of us thought she'd come out. We didn't think she'd be able to make it through the day. She did though.
I was reading a newspaper article about the meaning of life according to different philosophers. One of them said that you should ask yourself the question, "Why don't I kill myself?" I've actually asked myself this question lots of times. I realised early this morning that I don't have an answer any more.
I've just got home from my 4th driving test, which I failed again.
I've never in my life felt the way I'm feeling right now.
I dont think I'm going to come out of it.
-_-

Random blog. I've had this picture ages. I just saw it and wanted to put it on now I can. It really impressed me. The writing's part of the colouration of the apple's skin. It's great.
^_^

Is it a Lion? Or is it an Eskimo? Who knows.
O_o

Apparently I don't use this properly anymore. Which I guess is true. It's just, most of the time, I don't have chance or just can't be bothered to blog.
There're also a lot of things going on that I just don't want to talk about really.
Hm, just got a call from SIF saying they want me to work tomorrow, for the day. *shrug* may as well.
So, today. I went to work, that was unbelievably hard. Then I went to the doctor's again. My throat's just infected if you want to know. She says it's nothing more.
You know what? Anyone reading this would probably think that sounds really pathetic and overly emotional. It probably is, but I've never had emotions before. I'm going to use them.
Meh
gone
-_-

I've finally managed to get pictures on this thing. My wristband from Leeds. There you go.
^_^

Just back from Leeds festival. It was pretty horrible. The entire place was just full of people drinking or getting stoned. None of it was about watching bands as far as I could see. It was just so annoying.
I didn't really see that many people. There weren't that many people on I really wanted to see. There were a lot of big bands on. The type you should see 'cause you'd not really get the chance to any other way, but I didn't really care that much. I saw Jurassic 5 who I've loved for years. They were really great and I got to see Funeral for a friend which was full of emo kids so you can imagine how much I liked that. But, it reminded me of the missus so it was nice in that way. Most of the other people who were on I didn't get to see.
Ooo, I randomly met Gandhi in one of the tents and stayed with him for a while. That was pretty cool.
Then, the best part, Naomi called me on Sunday night. It was so great. I was feeling so uneasy and isolated being in a place like that where I knew no-one there was like me in any way. It was the first time we'd really spoken like we used to since I'd met her in March. It made me feel so much better and happier than thougth I could be anymore after the year up until that point.
It woke me up and reminded me of a person I used to be. That I want to be again.
Hopefully I will be one day.

Yay, my internet's fixed... maybe. It has crashed twice today so, I dunno. O_o
I thought my new firewall was stopping me from blogging (mini heart attack) but, turns out, blogger was just being an ass.
meh
pointless blogging.
*_*

I'm sat here, with a plate of food on my lap, just staring at it. Everytime I put it to my mouth I feel like being sick.
I'm gonna take it back downstairs and get more crap off of my mum for not eating.
I'm really fed up of feeling like I can't eat. Although, I did manage to sleep today for about 4 and a half hours. Go me.
So... don't really know what else to say. I'm pretty fed up of talking and especially whining.
Oblong.
O_o

Hm, my aunt just came in and asked if my mum was here.
Should I have asked her if she was ok?
Should I have talked to her about my grandma?
I dunno.
I'm so crap at this stuff.
O_o

DOCTOR: Would you like to know?
GRANDMA: No. I'm going to die sometime.
I love it when people are that strong.
So yeah, my Grandma has almost certainly got lung cancer. She's told them she wanted to come home instead of staying in hospital for more tests.
She basically told my father she'd come home to die.
I'm not really sure what I feel about it to be honest.
um
end
"_"

Spider.
No, really. SPIDER!!
O_o

120 posts!! Look at me go.
I forgot to do that when I got to the 100 post milestone so, there we go.
Um, I can't think of anything else to blog.
...
Nope, nothing.
Now your turn.
^_^

Been up for 23 hours and counting. Oh the fun.

I doubt I'm going to sleep any time soon. I hate this so much.

ugh, crapcrapcrapcrapcrap.

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That's mature.

O_o

Wow. Cherry Coke comes in big bottles. I don't know why that surprised me, I've just never thought to look before.
The cat keeps howling at me and bringing me dead things. I don't like the cat.
I slept most of last night so I'm probably not going to sleep today. Although, saying that I'll probably feel really crap before the hour's up and end up going to bed just so that I don't have to be awake.
dun dun dun
Everything will be fine, really.
mmmyep.
O_o

roy likes pudding says:
would it cheer you up if i told you a girl who beat up my friend in high school was on trisha this mornig because she is the size of a HOUSE and she has slept with 90 men and cant stop?
 
Oh dear. People. Well, no. People who go on Trisha.
O_o

ok. I have to do this otherwise I'm going to go insane. I'm going to come of as really anal and snobbish but it has to be done.
This notice was put up at work the other day;

"MACE PURE ORANGE JUICE
It Does NOT SCAN BUT
It IS IN SToCK LOOK UP
It'S under PURE ORANGE 79p
If STOCK NorMALy Scans
ThEn IT DOES NOT You
MUST LOOK in SLU
ThEn AgAIN you Should
ALreADy KNOW THIS???"
 
It's actually  written like that. There are capital letters thrown in everywhere and not one punctuation mark at all. Then there's the three question marks at the end. What are they for!? There isn't a question anywhere in there. Anyway, it's been driving me mad.
Ok, there we go. Rant over.
To bed.
^_^

but not a word was spoken, the church bells all were broken says:
i know. as usual i was the only girl left

but not a word was spoken, the church bells all were broken says:
and they were trying to wake everyone else up to play jizz biscuit

C'est nes pas la chute qui import, c'est l'atterissage says:
play....what? :

but not a word was spoken, the church bells all were broken says:
er.. soggy biscuit?

C'est nes pas la chute qui import, c'est l'atterissage says:
do I really want to know what that is?

but not a word was spoken, the church bells all were broken says:
no, but its gross and only guys can play it, it involves sitting in a circle, and the conclusion being the last one has to eat the biscuit.
 
You learn something new every day.
O_o

Hm, I keep saying that one day I'm not going to sleep past my stop on the bus and today I came scarily close. Seconds from missing it in fact. I've slept four hours since Tuesday. I think I've decided to quite my job. I only took it to pay for ridiculously huge phone bills that I was running up and to go places and see people. Now I have no-one to see and no-where to go. So there's not really much point. Why work when the only reward is money that I'm not going to spend?
meh.
I purposely missed two buses today so that I could pick up the photos from Dublin. I got into a lot of trouble when I got to work for being late. I almost told my boss to bite me but I didn't have the energy to argue with her today. I just got snappy whenever anyone spoke to me slightly off and they got the picture.
Hm, that's strange. I just can't be bothered to write anymore. Guess this is the end of the post then.
O_o

Hm, yeah. Stuff and things...mainly stuff.
Slept for 15 hours last night. I had a dream that I was trying to buy All-Bran but all I could find was Fruit and Fibre. Damn dream supermarkets!
Maybe it's not worth sleeping if that's what I'm going to be doing with my time.
Just realised I've not eaten a meal all day. Crap
Meh, sleep.
-_-

I'm currently on two bottles of Dr Pepper a day. I think I'm developing a habit. O_o
*Excitement* Only 6 days until I go to Ireland... again O_o hmmm.
Actually, it's all quite scary. But it'll be worth it. I mean, The Cure and SNOW PATROL!!!
Plus, I get to sleep in my tent. Which is the greatest tent ever and you know it.
^_^

Well. I slept for 30 minutes last night then went to work all day. I had to be woken up when I got to town because I fell asleep on the bus. Then I fell asleep on the Sheffield bus and involuntarily slapped the person in front of me. Twice. Finished the entire days work in 1 hour and had to sit for six hours waiting for the tape for tomorrow. While waiting I fell asleep, sat on a chair, with my head on the desk and my arms dangling between my legs. Great.
My mum came to pick me up and I was sat on the curb waiting for her and she drove past me. When I got in the car both her and my aunt said they didn't know it was me. They thought it was a tramp. Huzzah!
So, um, yeah. Need to sleep more. O_o Actually need to sleep full stop.
OOO and my Lenore DVD came.
^_^

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ARGH! They've left me...with a house, until Tuesdaaaaay. :| The responsibility.
eep
^_^

NAY: What happened to Malfoy's hair? I mean, I still like it, but it's weird.
ME: I think he looks weird anyway.
NAY: He always looks like he's sneering.
ME: Yeah. Or like he's got sand in his underpants. O_o
NAY: yeah O_o
um, maybe
^_^

Woo. Ireland sooon. I should probably be packing. Or sleeping. Or something. But I'm not. I'll probably pack tonight twenty minutes before I go. I'm so well organised.
^_^

A guy came into the shop today and showed me an article in the newspaper about a 22 year old who was killed in a motorcycle accident. "Have you seen this? That was my best friend." I looked at him and he had tears in his eyes as he was talking. I spoke to him for a couple of minutes, it was obvious he wanted to talk to someone, but then it got busy and I had to serve people and he left. It was pretty strange. I never know what to say in those types of situations, I've never really experienced grief. I've lost people, but never really felt grief over it.
Then later Mary came in. "Mary the ass-spanker" to those who know about her. >_< She'd won £10 on a lottery ticket and when I gave her the money she handed me a pound. I asked her what it was for and she said, "It's your share." I said, "What!? I can't take this. Don't be silly." And she said, "You are!" I don't really like to argue. She may be in her 80s but I get the feeling she could knock me clean out if she wanted.
O_o

Ack. Nose peeling. Damn sun.
So, a guy came into the shop today wearing a t-shirt that said, "I have epilepsy" in huge white letters. O_o If he was epileptic then that's just disturbing. If he wasn't, then that's SO offensive in so many ways.
Ugh, people.
"_"

Fight Club!


What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
brought to you by Quizilla

Hmm.
Sunburn. Dammit!!

Eternal sunshine of the Spotless mind is amazing!! Seriously.
Sooo. I was made to watch Big Brother on Friday. I spent the whole hour literally snarling at the screen. Television, and society in general, has sunk to a whole new low. ugh.
Saw Harry Potter yesterday. Twas cool. *nods* Had dinner from Dominos
and went and sat in the middle of the traffic island again to eat it.
^_^

Boredboredbored
Nobody's online.
Just went to Tesco and saw a hunchback and a lesbian couple...not together however, that would have been weird, right? O_o
GAH lkjeg bkjetb vkejhtrkjhbgekmnbv ejk;kog.dzdz
Crappy crap crap crap.
I feel quite wrong...yes I'm sure that's the best way to describe it. Well, as opposed to feeling right I guess it is. :o/
mmmyep
O_o

Corned Beef...So, what? The beef is corned. What exactly does the corning process entail? Is there a middle aged Venezualan woman, wearing a headscarf, pelting strips of beef with corn. Furiously taking out her anger over her husband running off with a young girl from Brazil while leaving her with two kids, an anaemic budgie and a three legged rat?
Maybe not
murmurmur Had a conversation with Naomi last night that I think was significant in some way. Not sure what way though. murmurmur *stabs head*
Hmmm. I wonder if I could perform a lobotomy on myself... I wonder if I'd notice a difference.
O_o

"I can't get my hand in the jar!!"
"Use a fork."
"It's too short. I'm gonna have to tip the jar without...I've got one!! Woo It was like some sort of engineering feat."

There, blogged.
^_^

I was supposed to be at work for about 10:30 this morning. I came home and went to bed and woke up at 4:30. I haven't even phoned to tell them I wasn't coming in. They haven't phoned to see were I was, so *shrugs* I dunno.
I've not even billed them for the last job I did. Still, I only worked one day so it's only £100. I'm just generally uninterested in anything recently.
Meh
"_"

NATHAN(paperboy): Shane. Does anyone like you?
ME: No. And with good reason.
What a comment to receive.
O_o

Woo. Chocolate! I got a LOT of chocolate from the people at work for my birthday. I feel quite sick but I'm not going to stop eating it.
^_^

Wow. BRAND NEW was very cool. I was three people from the front and I got slightly crushed and very sweaty. Plus my glasses just flew off my face and disappeared without a trace. Strange O_o
After we came out we sat outside the studio where I work waiting to be picked up when a woman stopped her car and ran across the road to us. She knelt down in front of us and told us that she owned the offices next to the ones we were sat in front of and we were welcome to sit under her window if we wanted. She went on like this for some time while we stared at each other in a confused manner. Eventually she said that her business partner, Carl, used to sell the Big issue and he was a down and out too. (Her exact words.) At which point we looked at each other and she said, "We're just waiting to be picked up."
So the woman stops, looks at us, stands up, BOWS and apologises while backing off across the road.
So there you have it. We look like hobos. Nice
O_o

Hm,
MUM: Are you going to eat something? You look pale and unhealthy.
ME: I am pale and unhealthy.
*shrugs*
Murgh
"_"

Note: Cheese and coleslaw sandwich = Bad

Just went to see Dylan Moran. It was very cool.
Hm. Have you ever had the feeling you've just figured out something profound but you're not conscious of what it is? I was sat looking at all these people outside the theatre and I had the overwhelming sense that I'd realised something really important. But I couldn't come close to being cognisant of it. It's a strange feeling.
Anyway. Yeah.
^_^

ok, slight crisis of faith.
What's the point in being how I am? Why be different from everyone else? Why be honest? What has it gotten me. All my morals and convictions have brought me nothing but unhappiness and isolation.
I can't pretend to like people if I don't. I do it far too much and I'm not very convincing at it. Plus it makes me hate myself for not being entirely truthful, even if I'm not actually lying to them.
I don't like the way most people are. They're immoral, they lie, they're selfish etc. I can't be that way. But why shouldn't I be? It's causing pretty much all the problems in my life. I can't relate to anyone else, not the way I want to. People say they want someone who's different. Who's not like everyone else. Someone who's intelligent, kind, 'good.' Or any other stereotypical answer you can think of.
Well, in my experience, that's not true at all. At least, I've never met anyone who truly adheres to that.
Meh. I don't really know what I'm trying to say. I can't order my thoughts at the moment. I'll probably try again later after I've slept.
"_"

"What do you think? Nice eh?"
^_^

On the way out of work I heard a woman shouting to a little blonde kid, "Come on Calvin. It's nine. You're going to be late." It made me giggle. Well, not giggle. That's a little girly. More like a manly...um, chortle? Yep. Chortle. That'll do.
O_o

The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to Purgatory!

Purgatory
----------

You have escaped damnation and made it to Purgatory, a place where the dew of repentance washes off the stain of sin and girds the spirit with humility. Through contrition, confession, and satisfaction by works of righteousness, you must make your way up the mountain. As the sins are cleansed from your soul, you will be illuminated by the Sun of Divine Grace, and you will join other souls, smiling and happy, upon the summit of this mountain. Before long you will know the joys of Paradise as you ascend to the ethereal realm of Heaven

Hmmm. If Facewhore's anything to go by level 7 is going to be VERY crowded.
O_o

ok. MORE pointless quizzes.

You're The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe!

by C.S. Lewis

You were just looking for some decent clothes when everything changed
quite dramatically. For the better or for the worse, it is still hard to tell. Now it
seems like winter will never end and you feel cursed. Soon there will be an epic
struggle between two forces in your life and you are very concerned about a betrayal
that could turn the balance. If this makes it sound like you're re-enacting Christian
theological events, that may or may not be coincidence. When in doubt, put your trust
in zoo animals.


Take the Book Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.

WOO.
^_^

Emo! You're very in touch with your emotions and
that's what I like about you! It's all about
the music for you... I have pity for your
tortured soul...you're just like me...


What genre of rock are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

Aw, crap. I'm not, honest!
O_o

ICE PRINCE .You need distance
between you and your partner in your
relationship. You are very difficult to get.
You have big requirements and the one you love
must try hard to get you. But after she melts
your heart she will be the happiest person
in the world. You need someone who shows you
that you are special and it makes you feel
good to see that you are loved. She shall
know that you could easily get another
girlfriend but you wont as long as you
love her. when she hurts you you will hurt
her too, but in general you dont get hurt. If
your partner cheated on you ,you would react cold
and immediately (try to) forget her.

Hmmm, "Ice Prince"? Nice.
I think I may be taking too many of these crappy quizzes. But I'm SOOO bored.
O_o

Hmm. I just randomly hacked at my hair with nail scissors. I didn't realise I took so much off till I looked in the bin.
Quite like it though.
O_o

I AM 51% EMO! Well.. I've made the cut! Now I'll go buy some promise rings and knit myself a sweater. Take the EMO test at Fuali.com

Not THAT bad I guess.
O_o

What stupid celebrity are you destined to kill? by daydreamer8852
Name
Birthdate
You killed
With a
On	April 2, 2023
Created with the ORIGINAL MemeGen!

Hmmm
O_o

Hm. I wonder how far I can actually run my body into the ground before it turns round and gives up on me?
I've been sleeping VERY strangely recently. Usually go to bed about 7 in the evening then randomly wake up every couple of hours until work at half four. Or just not sleep at all for two days at a time.
I've also not eaten anything but half a can of tuna, 6 crackers and two bars of chocolate in the past 60 hours. O_o
I feel quite strange, but I'm not actually hungry OR tired. This is all going to lead to trouble.
Feeling very lightheaded and more than a little weird I sent Naomi a long, rambling e-mail which I don't recall all the contents of. Hmm. Probably a bad idea.
On a lighter note I have tickets to see Dylan Moran on the 10th of May and Brand New on the 13th. WOO.
So, I'm now going to go and lay on my bed in a daze and probably fall asleep.
-_-

Hm, I used to go days or even WEEKS without blogging. Now I do it more than once a day sometimes. It's becoming a bit of an obsession. What's the point really? Who even wants to read this stuff? Still, it keeps me amused.
So, sleep. After only getting 8 hours since Friday I fell asleep at about 8pm yesterday and then woke up about 11. I then proceeded to talk to Chlo on MSN (btw, checked old man pyjamas are the coolest. We decided.) until 2 this morning before realising I'd not slept again. Naomi came online for about two minutes but didn't say anything to me. Murgh. She's got a lot of stuff going on at the moment and I really wish I could help out in some way but I get the feeling I make it worse. We don't seem to be able to talk anymore. I dunno. I really miss how we were. I don't think it's ever going to go back to that though. Everything's a bit of a mess. I REALLY don't know how to deal with the emotions I have for her. Denial's always good though.
Decided to walk home again today. Bought a Ben and Jerry's ice cream sandwich thing made with two cookies. ^_^ It was very impressive. Instead of walking home down the main road I decided to go through the woods and over the fields. About halfway through the woods I came to a part that was completely carpeted in wild flowers. The entire floor was a sea of purple and green with just a path through the middle. It was incredible and the smell was amazing.
Said "good morning" to two old men. I love being randomly friendly to people when you can tell they deserve it.
I ended up walking in a circle and coming back on myself so that I could walk around my old high school. I stumbled onto the path that I used to follow out of school and instantly felt like I was twelve again. I used to be SO relieved when I was walking up that hill because I was getting away from school.
Got very dusty and was perhaps overly amused by the fact dust came off my boots when I walked. O_o hm.
Now what... I've got nothing to do anymore. I should sleep I guess and maybe eat. I need to remember that my body needs sleep AND food to function. I don't seem to give it either recently.
Hmmm, yeah
^_^

EEE Shaolin Monks *fanboy face*
Hm, yeah.
Went to SENI (martial arts type thing) in Birmingham. Was a little too excited about meeting the Shaolin monks and getting a poster signed by one. ^_^
So, yeah. That's that.
^_^

DAD: Bring us a paper back from work. Mirror or t' Star'll do
ME: *glares* I'm bringing a Mirror.

Hmmm, well. Slept in till 5 again, woke up for 20 minutes, went back to sleep and just woke up now. Didn't go to Sheffield to pick up my cheque even though I DID have chance to.
Murgh. Evil.
"_"

I love spring. Decided it was such a nice day that I'd forget the fact I'm incredibly sleep deprived and walk the three miles home from work. Got my trousers snagged on something and ended up with a two inch tear up the left leg. Although, when I looked, there was nothing to snag them on. So I jumped to the conclusion that it was some kind of trouser tearing imp...as you do.
Kept getting random memories of being in Tesco with Naomi. Made me feel quite bad. I really should have tried harder when I was there. I get the feeling I probably came off nonplussed by the whole thing. I REALLY wasn't. Just being with her was amazing. I just wasn't sure how to act around her. I didn't want to be too affectionate towards her in case it made her feel weird. Still, I managed to do that anyway. Meh, too late now.
Stopped at a petrol station I've not been in since I was at school. It seemed strangely cold and clinical. Can't quite put my finger on why. Bought some Dandelion and Burdock. Seriously, how can people NOT like that!? It's great.
Stopped in to see my mum at work for a few minutes...nothing much happened there.
Was walking down the road and suddenly got a memory of playing Peter Pan with my cousins when I was little. We gathered up dust and gravel from the road and put it on each other's heads saying it was pixie dust. O_o Completely normal childhood. *nods*
Someone on my road saw fit to put England flags out of all of their windows to celebrate St. George's day. Hm.
Now I'm sat eating warm croissant and watching the end of Kill Bill thinking, "why?" May be going to see part two later with my sister. Again, "why?"
Anyway that's it for now. OOO, look at me using my blog for it's INTENDED purpose instead of whining.
Woot
^_^

Hmm, feeling kind of strange today. "Like a retard that doesn't know he's retarded." Um, kinda O_o Spent 5 hours lay on my bed last night staring at the ceiling/wall (depending on my position obviously) thinking. I probably don't need to say what I was thinking about. Didn't really come to any conclusions on anything. Drifted in and out of sleep and ended up in a general state of vegatativeness (I think that's a new word there!) Got up at three and wandered aimlessly round the house until it was time for work.
Headed to town after work for job number 2. Spent another £70 at the video store. Bought a Brand New album, Snow Patrol's album, Kill Bill (even though I didn't like it that much O_o must stop buying films I don't like.) Roman Holiday (Audrey Hepburn *swoons*) and Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles the movie (yes, I know, I'm COOL ^_^)
Then walked 20 minutes out of my way so I could sit in the park and eat pasta and cheese (yep, they SELL it like that, you couldn't have been THAT wrong Naomi.) Sat in the park listening to Snow Patrol (mainly 'Run' still) and thinking about more stuff. Figured a few things out, not that it helps much. Um, stared at my shoes, mmm converse, then headed to the bus stop.
Did everything I had to do at SIF then sat for TWO AND A HALF HOURS waiting for my money but finally told them I'd come back and get it tomorrow. Sleep deprivation started to catch up on me and I was sat thinking and came out with the gem "That leaves me with the predicament of air and upsidedownness." My ACTUAL words.
Sent Naomi a message saying that I got the feeling she didn't want to talk to me...she didn't reply. There's my answer I guess. Would stay up and wait for her to come online to ask what's wrong but she'll probably just snap at me again. I don't want to deal with it anymore. I've told her how I feel about her, and about everything that happened, the rest is up to her. To be honest I've got a pretty good idea how this'll turn out and I'm not sure I want to be there when it happens.
So yeah. That's today.
Sleep -_-

Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: High
Schizoid: High
Schizotypal: High
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Moderate
Histrionic: Low
Narcissistic: Moderate
Avoidant: Very High
Dependent: Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive: High

Wow. How messed up am I?

Schizoid
People with schizoid personality disorder avoid relationships and do not show much emotion. They genuinely prefer to be alone and do not secretly wish for popularity. They tend to seek jobs that require little social contact. Their social skills are often weak and they do not show a need for attention or acceptance. They are perceived as humorless and distant and often are termed "loners."

Avoidant
Avoidant personality disorder is characterized by extreme social anxiety. People with this disorder often feel inadequate, avoid social situations, and seek out jobs with little contact with others. They are fearful of being rejected and worry about embarassing themselves in front of others. They exaggerate the potential difficulties of new situations to rationalize avoiding them. Often, they will create fantasy worlds to substitute for the real one. Unlike schizoid personality disorder, avoidant people yearn for social relations yet feel they are unable to obtain them. They are frequently depressed and have low self-confidence.

Hmm. No comment.
O_o

hmm. I've had nearly 13 hours sleep today. I feel awful. I think I'm shaking. Still confused. Don't even want to think about it. Working for 14 hours on Thursday, I need to sort my sleeping out before then. Probably not gonna happen. I'm just going to pass out at work or something.
Murgh
`_`

I think five in the afternoon may be too late to be just getting up. What do you think?
O_o

Hm. I'm SURE there's a storm cloud over my head. Like in a cartoon.
I not going to 'cheer up'! Just find me an umbrella.
mmmyep.
O_o

Woo. I can hold a handstand for about TWO seconds now. Look at me go.
Mmmyep.
O_o

HAHAHAHAHAHAA. Guesswhatguesswhatguesswhat!...
...
I dunno.
Bored.
I'm seriously considering not coming back from Dublin in June. Or just leaving for somewhere else. I'm probably too much of a coward to actually go through with it though.
Meh.
O_o

Woo. Joined Deviantart. Lookit!

DeviantArt

^_^

fedupfedupfedup
I don't even KNOW what's wrong with me anymore. There's NO reason for me to feel like this now. Maybe I've finally had the breakdown I've been headed for.
O_o

WOW. I was born about 50 years too late I'm sure. I FINALLY bought a hat. I still need more though. I think I may have an obsession. Hmmm.
O_o

Gimme a chance to do a hip hop dance! says:
the most strange thing that ever happened 2 me was when some guy came up 2 me and said "hi! how are you? here, have a cigar."
Something never meant to be. Everything you meant to me. Wake me when this punishment is done. says:
:|
Gimme a chance to do a hip hop dance! says:
still have it
Something never meant to be. Everything you meant to me. Wake me when this punishment is done. says:
you TOOK it?
Gimme a chance to do a hip hop dance! says:
well he just put in my hand and continued walking
Something never meant to be. Everything you meant to me. Wake me when this punishment is done. says:
hmm

Strange
O_o

WOOO. Lemon ice tea. All is right with the world. Actually I'm not sure if i like it that much. It just seems more right than the others. I've just bought a Harry Potter scarf. Huzzah! It's THE coolest item of clothing I've EVER owned... or it's the geekiest thing in the WORLD. Either way, I love it.
^_^

CUSTOMER: "What do you call the fatty tissue surrounding the vagina? The wife."
ME: *Fake smile* "Heh heh. Yeah." ACTUALLY thinking: "I want to stab you in the eye with this pen."
THAT is one thing that I've hated about myself for years and after this week I've decided it has to stop. One person I didn't want to be fake around was her and I couldn't help it.
I hate people. Yet I'm friendly to everyone. I just smile and nod. I try to get on as well as I can without causing offence to anyone. I act happy to put other people at ease. Well I'M not at ease around them because I'm being extremely fake and I HATE it. Why should I make myself uneasy to make THEM feel better.
So here you are. I scowl all the time. That's how I look. I'm not bored. I have a bad attitude. I don't jump around and act happy all the time. It doesn't mean I'm NOT happy. I have a bad attitude. I probably don't like you and I'm not going to pretend I do anymore.
Hmmm. I've not really thought out what I want to say so that may not make much sense. I'll probably rewrite it later when I've given it more thought.

Ooo. I have comments. Wow. Like I need them O_o but hey.
^_^

O_o Well, that was... strange. When I first saw her I was ACTUALLY shocked. I can't even BEGIN to describe what her smile was like.
But... as things went on I could tell she regreted asking me over and it made me feel quite awkward around her. I REALLY couldn't be myself and that just made it worse.
I'm not sure how she feels about me now but, meh, emotional rubbish. There was just too much there to begin with and neither of us knew how to handle it.
Emotional retards *nods*
^_^

Well OBVIOUSLY I've got to say something about the fact that i'm going to Northern Ireland in about... 5 hours. Even though Naomi hasn't *pokes*
Hmmm, I just went downstairs and found the cereals I put out 3 hours ago and forgot to eat. O_o and I've cut my NOSE shaving!! "_" It's not nerves though, I'm just a dumbass. *nods*
So, um...yeah, see you on friday
^_^

"You're out of your tree."
"It wasn't my tree."
^_^

Well. Today I fell asleep on the film set for about half an hour (luckily it was lunch time and only one person saw me).
Oh yeah. I'm going to Ireland for a week on Monday to see Naomi. Forgot to mention that for some reason. It should be great :oD
Hmm, quite a sparse post but I'm tired and I want to go to bed.
^_^

MY SOFA!!!
^_^

The helicopter game is THE most addictive thing on the planet. Hands down.
Chug chug chug chug chug
^_^

Eee snowing. This morning a snowflake landed on my jacket and it was perfect. It looked just like one of those crappy plastic decorations you get at Christmas. It was amazing. But that's beside the point.
Instead of going home to sleep after work (which would have been the sensible thing to do) I went all the way to town and bought Once upon a time in Mexico on DVD. I didn't actually like it that much when I saw it at the cinema, but I already have the first two and I'm not going to desert the trilogy at this late stage. Plus it has Johnny Depp in it so I really had no choice.
Ok. So here's the report from my 'World of introspectiveness'
I'm guessing the main thing that's been on my mind is the question "Will I ever find a partner?"
Well. Naomi and I have gone over this question MANY times and I've come to the conclusion that my answer is, "no." In almost twenty years I've never met anyone who I felt enough of a connection with to even bother having a relationship with them (Well obviously I have met one but that's neither here nor there) and, to be honest, I don't really want to waste my time trying to find someone.
Now with that out of the way there's not much else to think about, as all the other things were pretty much incidental to that, so it may not be a week at all. Woo. Look at me go.
Anyway...sleep now.
^_^

Hmm. Back to where it all began.
I feel like there's a LOT I need to blog but I don't know what it is. Or rather, I don't want to acknowledge it. Either way, I'm not going to whine.
OOO, Black Books.
OK, I'm annoyed with everything at the moment and I'm not sure why so I'm not going to be online for prrrobably a week. Hopefully I'll be in a better mood by then.
I'll keep you posted.
"_*

AHAHAHAHAAAAHHAHAAAAHAAAAA..Ha...ha...h...um, yeah
O_o

"What good do I get? What do you talk about? You might be dumb, or a baby, for anything you say to amuse me, or for anything you do either!"
"You never told be before that I talk too little, or that you disliked my company, Cathy!" exclaimed Heathcliff, in much agitation.
"It's no company at all, when people know nothing and say nothing," she muttered.

Hahaha, that sounds about right. Hooray for me and Heathcliff.
^_^

Wow. It's been a while. Actually I have nothing to say. I'm only blogging to assuage my guilt at having not done it in a while. O_o
Um...so...OH. Started reading Wuthering Heights today. I want to live in it. :o(
Maybe I'll come up with something profound later...then again, maybe not. We'll have to see.
^_^

Let the record show that I'm obnoxious on the phone *nods*
^_^

ooo Italics. Look at them go.
Um...Went out last night to celebrate me failing my driving test and I almost fell asleep at the table in the restaurant. Then got home and told Naomi I'd text her if I didn't fall to sleep first...I never did text her. O_o
Anyway, yeah, um...did I tell you about the ITALICS!?!?!?
^_^

Well. Not been to bed for...22 hours and I'm not tired yet. O_o
I Went to town and fell in love with the girl who serves in the record shop. She wore black high top chucks so she MUST be cool.
Then we went to the garden centre. I ask you, what IS it with those places? It's like the adult version of a toy store. I became thoroughly disappointed when I found there were no hats to try on. So I bought biscuits and coke and sat outside the front door grinning at people who came in.
All in all a very productive day. Well, maybe not, but still...
^_^

*Insane laughter*
No, really. INSANE!
+_+

Same crap songs, same bafflingly stupid adverts, same parade of people I'll never know, and never want to.

I've now given up trying to figure out if I'm awake or not.
-_-

*Blogging under duress*
Um...Tiredness mainly.
NOTE: Edited after beating myself over the head for twenty minutes with a shovel.
-_-

techno chocolate says:
how random
You gave me more to live for, more than you'll ever know says:
maaaaaybe
techno chocolate says:
for sure
You gave me more to live for, more than you'll ever know says:
ok
techno chocolate says:
ya get a A+ in randomnessness

I think that's a good thing...O_o
^_^

Don't you ever just wish you had theme music? Like when you enter a room or when you're walking down the street. It'd be great I'm sure.
^_^

Was out last night when Naomi phoned. It was the first time we'd really talked on the phone. The only other time was when she phoned me to let me hear Trin and we only said hello and goodbye.
I was so glad to get out of The Green Room. Surrounded by a bunch of idiots trying to out-stoner each other. It was the most pathetic thing I'd ever seen and when my phone rang the relief that came over me was huge.
I ran down the stairs hoping to get outside before it went on to the answerphone. I really didn't want to miss my chance to talk to her.
When I finally got outside my heart was pounding and I almost didn't answer it in time 'cause I was taking time to get my breath and compose myself. I was very nervous. More so than I can remember being ever before that. She's just such a huge thing to me.
Anyway. I answered the phone and got to spend ages talking to her. I was so scared of not being able to talk or having nothing to say, 'cause that's how I am, but she was telling me all about her night and things seemed to go pretty well. I was so nervous that I couldn't stand still. I ended up walking around most of town just to distract myself from being on the phone to her in some way. I'm sure I sounded like and idiot some of the time but just being on there with her and hearing her voice (which was beautiful) was amazing. She has the prettiest accent I've ever heard.
So yeah, that was that. I got a bit cold and a bit wet as I ran out so fast I forgot my top and was only wearing a t-shirt but none of it mattered.
It was so perfect to spend my valentine's day on the phone to her. Even if the rest of it was awful.
^_^

{ DoRiS } *STooPieS* {NoBoDY, NoWHeRe UNDeRSTaNDS aNYTHiNG...aBouT Me....} says:
happy valentines day, even though its not happy because its the highest day of suicide a year...
Mmmyep
^_^

Apparently it IS possible to function on 45 minutes sleep.
-_-

MUM: We're going away in four weeks
ME: OOO. We'll have a party
MUM: Lindsay can invite some of her friends. You can have pizza or chinese or something.
ME: Yeah. We could have BACON...Let's sacrifice a pig
^_^

I'm growing increasingly troubled by my total contempt for the rest of society.
O_o

Freud says:
at least blog
Et voila
^_^

I feel even FURTHER from normal now
O_o

I feel SO far from normal right now :oS
O_o

Hmmm. Naomi left a little abruptly :oS
She seemed...I dunno. I'm no good at this 'emotions' stuff.
O_o

"It's always hot in this house. I'm ROASTING. In fact, I'm in the oven RIGHT now being BASTED"
O_o

Listening to 'Frail' by Jars of Clay and I feel...um...strange.
Not sure whether it's good strange or bad strange :oS
O_o

The world was on fire and no one could save me but you says:
If I'd spoken to her I'd have found out that she was REALLY annoying or a marxist or something

It's hard to call this home, I'm more than just alone says:
don't talk nonsense, she was probably lovely

The world was on fire and no one could save me but you says:
Don't say that 'cause then i regret not talking to her.

The world was on fire and no one could save me but you says:
I say she kicks puppys

O_o

Have you ever watched someone fall asleep on a bus? It's HILARIOUS.


Unfortunately, today, I was that person.
Meh. Sleep is good
^_^

NUNS!!
O_o

Sooo sleepy
Work isn't right I tell you.
^_^

If this doesn't work I'm coming after you!! (I don't know who I'm reffering to but you can be DAMN sure they're scared)