Hmm, feeling kind of strange today. "Like a retard that doesn't know he's retarded." Um, kinda O_o Spent 5 hours lay on my bed last night staring at the ceiling/wall (depending on my position obviously) thinking. I probably don't need to say what I was thinking about. Didn't really come to any conclusions on anything. Drifted in and out of sleep and ended up in a general state of vegatativeness (I think that's a new word there!) Got up at three and wandered aimlessly round the house until it was time for work.
Headed to town after work for job number 2. Spent another £70 at the video store. Bought a Brand New album, Snow Patrol's album, Kill Bill (even though I didn't like it that much O_o must stop buying films I don't like.) Roman Holiday (Audrey Hepburn *swoons*) and Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles the movie (yes, I know, I'm COOL ^_^)
Then walked 20 minutes out of my way so I could sit in the park and eat pasta and cheese (yep, they SELL it like that, you couldn't have been THAT wrong Naomi.) Sat in the park listening to Snow Patrol (mainly 'Run' still) and thinking about more stuff. Figured a few things out, not that it helps much. Um, stared at my shoes, mmm converse, then headed to the bus stop.
Did everything I had to do at SIF then sat for TWO AND A HALF HOURS waiting for my money but finally told them I'd come back and get it tomorrow. Sleep deprivation started to catch up on me and I was sat thinking and came out with the gem "That leaves me with the predicament of air and upsidedownness." My ACTUAL words.
Sent Naomi a message saying that I got the feeling she didn't want to talk to me...she didn't reply. There's my answer I guess. Would stay up and wait for her to come online to ask what's wrong but she'll probably just snap at me again. I don't want to deal with it anymore. I've told her how I feel about her, and about everything that happened, the rest is up to her. To be honest I've got a pretty good idea how this'll turn out and I'm not sure I want to be there when it happens.
So yeah. That's today.
Sleep -_-