Everytime I talk to my mum I seem to hear that my grandma has gotten worse. There's that much emotional stuff going on in my life at the moment I've kind of had an overload. I don't really feel anything about anything any more. Just a general huge depression. It makes me feel even worse about myself when I think that I can't be truly upset about it.
I've never really been upset by death though.
I just wish I had some emotion left that wasn't bad. I physically hurt all over. It's like a dull pain throughout my entire body.
Meh.
It's been this bad before. I just hope it's not prolonged. I'd rather not spend another New Year in the hospital.
O_o